|I speak softly but I carry a big stick
||[Aug. 24th, 2010|07:32 pm]
Monocromatico, the Original One
Except when I find something really silly to share, I've been posting here every time something I find important happens, since LJ is pretty much dead, except for a few of you. Now, I want to say that I find it amusing and bizarre that I'm having fun with public speeches. Being a life long timid person that gets in panic when I have to talk to strangers and may freak out in a crowd, becoming a regular conferencist is something I had never imagined I could do, much less that I could have fun with it.
At college I lectured a few times, which gave me experience and made me more secure about myself on that super exposed position, in front of the class and my teachers, who could pull me down with criticisms if they wanted. This was terrifying at the beginning, I always got nervous, the voice failed and I never knew what to say, but you get used to it, specially in the situations where you are the only specialist on the subject you are speaking about, and know about it more than anyone else there, like when I exposed my Master thesis. I don't know if this is natural, or if I'm just finding out I'm a good actor that can switch my real self in and out whenever I need it. It would be interesting to investigate.
I've been lately making lectures on games, always something around origins, structure and functions of games, including board games, puzzles, video games, etc. The public ranges from university students to kids in school ages, to each one I wheigh my focus on this or that aspect of the general subject and language. Today I spoke to a crowd of 50 or 60 high school kids about the goods and bads on video games, and they seemed very interested. I spoke for 20 minutes, and they showered me with questions for nearly half hour. Next week I'm going to another school to present the same lecture.